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This
is now the third month after the Convergence and
life continues to readjust; perhaps it may be better
to say that life begins realigning itself to a forward
looking view of events and issues which lay ahead through
the narrow window of remaining time. This realization
is not much different than someone keeping track of
all stages and signs associated with monitoring and
counting the trimesters involved with giving birth.
Using this analogy, it is easy to explain the reversal
of time and meaning that occurred in this most mysterious
event that exists in the past, present and future; again,
in an analogous manner, it can be seen as a point of
conception, growth and finally birth. I have to laugh
as I become aware of an event that requires the independent
rational skills, physical strength, and discernment
of a man, yet elucidated using an analogy associated only with
women. I think this is a
very fortunate happenstance, as women could feel terribly
left out of an experience involving an all pervasive
Love that reaches out without discrimination, yet becomes
accessible to a unique group of people capable of reaching
heights that support the rarefied atmosphere within
which the mysterious realm of ethereal moments
is entered and experienced.
On
June 29 conception occurred within an early morning
experience on an island deep in a glacial river flood plain,
and by this date in October, the first trimester is
complete; I need to realize that I have a short time
left before the moment of birth. Once someone touches
the face of Love, it is impossible to return to a world
where you can't continue touching such wonder and beauty.
This is simply due to the fact that once you know what
it is like being One with the Infinite, nothing can
substitute for that which is perfect and eternal. The
closest I ever get to touching the heart that loves
every person, every creature, every star in the universe,
is during the moments when I meet children whose eyes
light up with joy when they hear the story and suddenly
see the Light and understand just Who I met in the moments
I lay in motionless peace on the second day; and as
of yesterday there were tears of heart break as one
student came to understand the levels of suffering that
preceded being held in the Arms of Love.
I
have no need to speak of religion for it isn't religion
I experienced. It isn't necessary for me to mention
names, for any names that are essential are easily revealed
by a Father with powers to light the most distant star,
move clouds. shape worlds, cause a drop of
dew to form on a blade of grass, but of greatest mystery,
the ability to turn death into life then give a son
of His a second chance. By allowing an escape from death
that fell in Love, this least of all sons was given
a chance to explain The Way a people of a mysterious
hidden land live in harmony with His Dance as they have
for millennia; flourishing like a fruitful tree
producing fruit with its season for ripeness
where Love comes to gracefully pluck that fruit before
it ever touches the ground. Everyone should live life
in this way reaching a stage of ripeness and one day
simply vanish as Love come to take His own from the
tree of life.
From
this time on I must busy myself with the task of getting
ready for departure; it's a difficult time as I must
fight to remain in this cycle of waking and sleeping
long enough to tell the secret of a people and land
where the world beyond has been protected in this world
for many thousands of years. I was given a chance to
live in that world for eleven years and now I should
make a detailed record of what it is like so the people
of the west who think that divorce, guns, violence and
drugs are just part of their life will find out about
a place where none of these fearful things exist or
are even thought of, a place where children are loved
by all, a safe beautiful place; a place that it is impossible
for me to live outside of. Yes, the most difficult awakening
has been recently as I discovered that I didn't come
back to Alaska to live and have a career but rather,
I came back to Alaska for the same reason salmon spawn;
to give life then surrender my own.
Departure
doesn't mean dying, rather it means a time when we give
up the flow that carries us through life to enter the
all powerful rushing icy surge that will judge every
heart; for those who flow into the convergence that
tries us in a judgment designed by Love, those who know
Love personally, they will find the Person of Love to
be enough to save them; just like a baby who moves from
the warm comfort of their mother to the shocking brilliantly
white cold delivery room to find a short time later
enter a joy as the warm strong hands of their
Father holding them in peace.
As
I get ready to head off to sleep I think about the many
people who have been wondering if I'm still
in this world or if I'm already dead. It's
wonderful to know what waits ahead of me, to know a
little about an eternal world of goodness. But what
about those left behind, those who have been waiting
for the moment of darkness to fall across my path, those
who waited at the end of the river to watch me die.
Well there is good news! Yes, absolutely there is Good
News; for in that good news I know that once I'm no
longer confined to this failing physical flesh, I will
no longer have an anchor to hold me to one place. It's truly a wonderful thought
to know that it will be possible to reach out and touch
the lives of those who think about me, to know for absolute certain I
will be coming to meet everyone in a very real and very
personal way. My greatest heart desire has been to go
and visit all who understand and all who misunderstand.
I remember a time when I flew around the world to
visit my family only to find no one at the airport,
all phones off the hook all doors closed; everyone was
hiding, as the hours at the hotel ticked away for me.
Oh how I longed to meet them and touch their lives again
but something was wrong; a heavy darkness had descended upon
my family and I could feel its terrible presence. I'm
so happy to know that I will have another chance to
visit my family again and this time no phone can be
hung up and no door shut and the single deep dark pit
that hold my older brother in a place that has escaped
the light of the Sun will flame with a Light of a million
suns.
Then there are
my dearest friends who think they have been tricked
or deceived; they have a love for nature which is wonderful
but even now their hearts have turned not against me
but against the very powers that control the
forces of the world of nature they live to visit on the weekends.
It is very fortunate that there is no need to wait until
my birthday to visit them for each time they venture
into the wilderness I will be waiting for them there
on every trail, mountain top but most assuredly in every
river they drive or walk over. Though
it be difficult, I am happy to still be here
for a while longer because it leaves a chance for everyone
to check their gear and readiness for an adventure
impossible to escape
I
like to travel and for those who know my life,
I have traveled more than I wanted to in this physical
world; however a time is coming when the difficulties
of carrying around a physical burden will be gone and
the ability to meet everyone will be possible. I must
make a promise to go out and definitely meet everyone
in a very unforgettable way. I guess there
comes a time when words you read bring to mind a certain
feeling and when that happens, you need to check the
origin of that feeling; perhaps it's a feeling
you get when you look up into a sunny sky or the feeling
you get when you look into a dark ocean with depths
that have never seen sun light; both the sun and deep
oceans hold their beauty and reveal secrets you once thought hidden. I
was given a precious gift last June, and what this gift
is able to do is just beginning to become apparent.
There are many people I haven't met
personally who have stumbled upon this page, but now
I know that once some things are opened, they can
never be closed.
I AM where I am going while I am still
here.
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