Moon Island

As mentioned in Part I, many of the terminally ill patients I met went as far as to begin begging me to help them get out of the hospital so they could die in peace. This request I could understand, since the hospital was an abysmally depressing place where patients are constantly surrounded by people who are all waiting to die soon, or are dead with people being paid to keep their bodies warm at the request of families who live with the hope that their loved one can be revived.

Of the entire experience being in the hospital, the two most challenging ones for me had to do with knowing that the hospital was making a sizable income by fostering false hopes of family members. These false hopes were built upon the expectation of recovery that would never come and the skillfully honed guilt they were made to feel by taking the body off life support; in the mean time these unwitting families would pour large sums of money into the hospital coffers. The other challenging aspect of the hospital that directly impacted my life, was my desire to free these patients who only had a short time to live and just wanted to spend it someplace cheerful and surrounded by warm people who had a genuine sense of care and love about them. I thought about this and wondered why I couldn't just take them home to my place where we could walk to the beach everyday or sit by the river or park.

With many eager patients standing behind me, I approached the hospital staff with the request to take these free willed individuals to my home so they could have their last request. The hospital staff simply told me that if anyone of them had a surviving relative who opposed the idea, the patient had to stay at the hospital. I then thought, “What loving relative would leave a family member in this terrible place?” There was a huge injustice involved with this matter. Having been a patient at one time, I knew I could sign a waver which released the hospital staff from any damages resulting from my decision to act in opposition to their decision. No, what was going one here at this hospital was very morbid as it has people hanging on to a miserable life manufactured by pathetic monetary greed that dashed all the dreams of those who hoped to die in a more graceful, natural way.

I witnessed this a second time in my life with my father-in-law who simply wanted to die at home surrounded by family. Yet in misguided motives, certain family members called the ambulance against his will, all to rush him back to the hospital he so hated and there died a miserable dead before the face of the only one who was in his life always but never to assist him in need. When he had breathed his last, this person leaned over and inquired, “Is he dead yet?”

On a more cheerful note, I have read “The Book of Nature on this matter and what I find written there is far more lovely and cheerful. This Book has a story that speaks about the same topic yet does so in a way that you would consider it a mystical fairy tale. This story I will speak about as soon as possible since it, like a scintillating door stands before me

One of the most remarkable things about nature is the live cycle of all its creatures. I have witnessed everything about insects, animals, including birds and sea creatures from the conception, birth and development. It is truly a remarkable thing to witness the balance and beauty there is to all of natures creatures. The most remarkable things is the absence of any creatures that are disabled, sick, or old; there just isn't any to be found. It's as if there were an omnipresent force or mechanism that is continually operating to rid nature of any and all creatures that are not healthy or fit to function in nature in such a way to continue the life cycle.

Humans (with recessive genotypes) are the only creatures I know of that come out of a womb and are immediately placed in a second artificial womb, by this I mean a place that separates and protects them from the forces of nature. All humans (with recessive genotypes for most dominant genotypic humanoids can live in harmony with nature) spend their entire life in buildings with as much separation from nature as possible; especially in places with extreme environments like the arctic, deserts or outer-space.

In nature I have never seen an aging or old gray deer, old bear, decrepit squirrel, old bird wrinkled fish or ant (to name a few). Every creature I see is either young with the protection of a mother near or they are in the prime of life and full of strength and health. Yes, there seems to be some kind or efficient “re-uptake” of any and all creatures that fall out of the cycle of being in their prime.

The only way I can begin to trace the aspects of this very pervasive and effective system, is to watch how certain creatures survive in a land where being exceptionally strong and fit is necessary to survive. How this re-uptake in nature functions in part can be seen by watching creatures that are scavengers like the raven in Alaska. By a terrible act of man, a moose was shot and left to waste on a frozen river surface last year. Within the first day the raven descended in a hoard upon the carcass and by the second day all that was left was bones and skin. By the end of the third and fourth day all that was left were the bones. After a week even the bones vanished. By the end of the month the only evidence of the moose were the very hard hooves left on the surface of the ice.

Asia has a dominantly pervasive womb like social system. While living there I was nurtured along with the collective. Being able to escape to a place in nature was difficult to impossible due to the pressure of population density. For eleven years I kept saying I want to go back to Alaska, NOT for the wonderful social system found here but rather the exceedingly wonderful access to the pure wilds of nature.

Last year I went for a camping trip by kayak down a river. What happened in that trip allowed me to come in contact with the natural force of “re-uptake” and the powerfully profound experience it is. For me as a human who has many of the necessary characteristics for natural “re-uptake” in nature; the primary objective was to experience this all pervasive force that keeps nature sparkling clean and forever young and healthy.

My first attempt was by a river side in early spring in 2009 as I lay on a space blanket in the warm sun shining on the snow. After 30 minutes, all continued peaceful but after about an hour of motionless rest, I notices the ravens beginning to flock to the nearby trees. The longer I lay there the more arrived; it was a bit unnerving to be eyed as carrion,

A year later I decided to seek out an island in a river to limit any chance of drawing on scavengers from the wilds. The area I discovered was so intensely inhospitable for any life or creatures and I mean that there was no vegetation because where I went was a glacial flood plain. What happened out there allowed me to experience something that was awesome and very powerful and it does have a life of its own which moves with the seasons. Spring is when this “re-uptake” force is most powerful. I wrote about my encounter with this event in the story call Convergence.

I believe I have this time to write and set my web page in order for one very specific reason. According to the clock in nature, I'm way past my time for being in this world. The only thing that inhibits departure or “re-uptake” is simply my remaining inside the synthetic wombs my people the white men have so meticulously made. As I do this, in the back of my mind I remember the words, “Vanity Vanity all is vanity said the wise man” According to my epistemology the whole foundation of reality will cease to exist and all memory of place and time will end and something very awesome must happen. There are only two ways energy can flow and I defined that out come in a recent page yet unfinished.

I must remember that the primary focus of the writing is to address the very mixed up way some parts of society work; by this I speak of the hospital for the terminally ill, that is basically designed to keep a person chained to a rotting chunk of flesh until the person dies from the revolting smell of his own death which he has been forced to “live” or die in, now that is so unnatural and very sick. I remember working with an old man who was in his sixties, he was very ill with cancer on the skin of his back; on hot summer days as we worked loading trucks the stink of rotting flesh was over whelming.

How mankind ever got out of synchronization with nature is beyond me.

Possibly continued. Why? Well I believe that just maybe, humans might be different than other creatures in nature; this observation developed from a unique and refreshing view on aging in Korea. You see, people in Korea believe that the older one gets the more authentic knowledge they possess, along with well developed skills; all of which can be conveyed to others making society a better place. In Korea, society holds to the belief that children are the future of a nation and the elderly or senior social members are very highly esteemed social members who are honored for their age and wisdom. In Korea, people make every effort to accommodate the seniors of society because the knowledge base of an older social member is a huge asset for education; the accommodation of elders is built into the social structure of Korea where it is the responsibility of the family to provide care, not a government social system.

Nevertheless, for an individual based social system, the system of support and accomodation utilized in the United States does have a lot of merit.  There is much to examine on this issue.